I got, I got, I got, I got

Loyalty, got royalty inside my DNA”

~ K. Lamar

So on this new year’s day 2018, while most were doing the “typical” celebratory activities 💏at midnight,  I chose to essentially spit in a tube and ship it off to ancestry.com for analysis.

Why would I choose to ‘ring in’ the new year in this way? A couple of  reasons:

1)To better understand who I am, the true essence of my character, my personality, my genetic predisposition for health risks and benefits.  Knowing from where my lineage, my  people, my ancestral genre arose from, my personal biological  life story: 

“We call out to dry bones come alive, come alive.We call out to dead hearts come alive, come alive. Up out of the ashes let us see an army rise. We call out to dry bones, come alive.” ~ Lauren Daigle (Ezekiel 37)

2) Comparison analysis. My older sister performed the test last year so naturally, I wanted check mine to assess validity of the test as well as have my own personalized results:

So in a review of this test process,  the following step by step photo instructions depict what you receive in the mail and how to prepare your own sample:

1) Box arrives in mail.

2) Open box and read instructions:

3) Make sure to register your test code:

4) Gather the supplies from the box:

6) Collect and mix your sample:

7) Package sample in the provided collection bag:

8) Box it up in the provided shipping package:

9) Drop it off at your nearest USPS and wait for the results 📮

So that’s that…I’ll update y’all later and  share a results post when I receive them. Until next time,  I am Candice Maria and this is Candice Maria’s {Inherited}Fit Life

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Never thought I’d see the day when I’d feel this way. When fitness and training, for general health and well-being as well as sports and competing,   becomes more of a chore and a struggle than an enjoyable act of self improvement. Because everyone knows…

However for the past month, I have awaken every morning bag packed headed to the gym with no pep in my step,  no passion, no excitement,  no joy! Like a cloud of despair and defeat looms over my head. I started to feel somewhat just FIT(ish) … going through the motions with no true desire to really be in the gym working out or home prepping meals and counting macros, etc. but all the while frustrated about my tendency for overeating (future blog post), the ever climbing numbers on the scale and the tightening of clothes that once fit just fine.

Part of it is sheer exhaustion and fatigue from the rigors of recent changes and transitions in my professional nursing career, that will eventually settle out once I get on a stable life-work schedule and routine. A second part of it is also sheer discomfort and pain, as a result of past injuries and musculoskeletal imbalances that nag my aging frame at now 35 years of age, that will also resolve with routine trips to therapy and adequate rest.

But lastly, a third part  to my lack of drive is more recent, and many will say its resolvable as well, as it simply requires mental toughness. But how easy is mental toughness and resilience when the very act of lifting weights and training, despite my recent decision to never return to the bodybuilding stage (details in a future post), these activities become a constant reminder of a poor decision made just a few short months ago, and the individual involved who hurt you and damaged your trust in them and consequently your ability to trust in general.

Emotional pain has a tendency to manifest itself in psychosomatic fashion, and the physical pain and fatigue experienced in the first two reasons mentioned for my lack of drive to workout and train could also be a result of the following scenario I’m about to share:
How do you find focus or enjoyment in your training when a lot of who you are, and how you train developed from the past trusted coach-athlete relationship you once had with the previously mentioned individual over three years ago. Despite no longer being in a coach-athlete relationship context with this person, and having developed a more personal relationship  in recent months, you find yourself in a situation of being betrayed to a point of no return.

So many levels of emotion and gray areas of confusion and emotion run through my mind daily since I learned the truth about this person. Not only as a Christian, professional career woman and an adult athlete, but also as a coach and trainer myself, it’s hard to grasp the complexity of the intentions this individual may have truly had from the beginning in the past during our coach-athlete relationship and based on the behaviors that occurred in the present during a more personal relationship with this individual. The blurred lines, the recent lies, and the mixed communication, etc. How do you catch all the warning signs without being blindsided?

It’s like everything you once thought you knew about a person is damaged eternally, because the trust you once had for them personally and professionally was a lie. Furthermore, the confidence you once had in yourself, your previous sport, your training and nutrition routine,  and even your own morals feels like it has died. You feel shame, guilt, defeat, doubt, depression, and simply a sense of lost control over how you manage yourself in relationships.

Currently, as a USATF Masters Athlete member of the board and association chair person for disabled youth track and field preparing for my officials credentials , I’m in the process of taking the U.S. SafeSport training. In watching and reading through the lessons in each of the training modules, all I can think about is how these same issues of safety, trust and respect, the dynamics of the coach-athlete relationship, consent, power imbalances, emotional, physical, and sexual misconduct, etc. that happens in youth sports, also happens to adult athletes as well, but in more subtle ways that rest in a gray area of “Oh you’re an adult, so you should know better” or “you knew what you were getting into”.

However, lies, manipulative intentions, and predatorial actions, despite asking the appropriate questions and no matter the age of the coach and/or athlete (whether present or former), are still unacceptable. Especially when one side of the situation has no remorse or sense of a need to at least be honest or apologize for misleading the other person.

In such cases, the athlete is essentially left to pick up the pieces of the sports activities they once enjoyed and learn to love themselves again, understand that they are not to blame themselves for what happen, regain a sense of control, and surround themselves with the people who truly have their best interest at heart.

In an effort to not go into any further details on this topic, I will close with this: What do you do when it’s not FUN anymore….? Forgive,  Forget, and Move Forward. Train harder and live well. Let your negative thoughts drive you to be your best, thinking about it won’t change what happened to you, but your actions and choices you make going forward can change you, and that is the only thing you can control. As my belief system puts it, God will deal with those who hurt you, it’s not your battle to fight! So be blessed.

I do not consider myself a “VICTIM” in this situation, but instead a “VICTOR” because I learned the truth, despite how painful it was, and I got away before things could get any worse. The take home lesson in all of this is to always stay vigilant,  question everything, and if the answers aren’t good enough,  question it again…#StayWoke!

Watch and Pray 
Threats to your personal and professional morality and sense of self-worth are always around in every sport, at every age! As a matter of fact in every area of life itself because, not to start preaching,  but we are in a spiritual war (Read Ephesians 6:10-2).

So despite the recent incidents in my life, one thing is certain, and that’s that God has kept his hand on me on this journey. When I think about my bodybuilding journey in particular, I realized so many beautiful aspects about myself that for years I never realized or considered possible. I learned to love myself, embrace my perfectly imperfect frame and developed a undescribable sense of peace and zeal for life that so many people could not understand or even comprehend (Phil.4:7),  not even the person who helped me get back into the sport and eventually betrayed me years later. So credit is owed where is due, to God! For everything I am and still becoming, it was all God’s doing all the time. He created this athlete that stands before you and is still working on, in, and through me!

Situational setbacks can make you lose sight of the ONE who instilled your passion and enjoyment in your most loved activities. For me it was my personal fitness journey and athletic accomplishments.  Throughout my past and present athletic endeavors I learned so many things about myself,  I enjoyed the self improvements that I made in my 3rd decade of life and continue to set my eyes on God for the direction He wants to take this journey in next decade, and the one’s to come, because all the actual work back then and even now was performed by yours truly by the grace and hand of the Almighty God. To Him be the Glory and the Power Forever!

So until next time….on a lighter happier side of life …

~ I AM (still) CANDICE MARIA ~ and this is (still) ~CANDICE MARIA’S  FIT LIFE ~

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Welcome to Day 13 of #31DaysofMindfulness and the Meatless October Challenge….

Mindful Minute

 

Live such a fascinating life, that it’s open book worthy” ~ Candice Maria

A life well lived, traveled well, and lived out loud….do you live a life so phenomenal that it’s open book worthy?

I recently received a birthday card from my younger brother that stated on the cover…”She made her own life, and it was beautiful” What do others say about your life? Since it’s Friday the 13th, what do you think will come to mind after you leave this earth, during the eulogy of your death at your funeral, as others celebrate your life here on earth?

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Upon opening the card, it goes on to say ” …. and pretty soon, everybody else wanted one just like it..” Powerful words to receive on a day when you are celebrating another year of your life. Do you have an open book story to share with the world? Is there something about your life that you believe will make a difference, impact, and shock the world?

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Mindful Mobility 

If you have been following along with the challenge calendar , you should be doing a minimum of 30 minutes of cardio, along with a minimum of 2 rounds (or as many as your body needs) of the Sun Salutation A sequence as prehab before and/or after your other resistance training or athletic activities today.

Meatless Meal of the Day (MOD) 

Today’s MOD feature is a Trifecta Nutrition System Sesame Mushroom Lima Beans:

Ingredient List:

  • Luna beans*

  • Onion*

  • Carrot*

  • Broccolini*

  • White cabbage*

  • Shiitake mushroom*

  • Scallion

  • Extra virgin olive oil*

  • Sesame oil

  • Safflower oil*

  • Coconut sugar*

  • Coconut aminos*

  • Grade B maple syrup*

  • Dijon mustard*

  • Lime juice*

  • Cilantro*

  • Ginger*

  • Basil*

  • Black sesame seed

  • Black pepper

  • Sea salt

  • Filtered water

*Organic

Nutrition Facts (The Macros):

Serving Size: ~ 350 grams (able to be divided into two 175g servings):

Total calories: 438

Total fat: 14g

Sodium: 532 mg

Total carbohydrates: 68g

Dietary fiber: 11g

Sugar: 30g

Protein: 10 g

This concludes Day 13 of 31 Days of Mindfulness and Meatless October Challenge….stay tuned for Day 14…

Until next time.. ~ I AM CANDICE MARIA ~ and this is ~ CANDICE MARIA’S FIT LIFE ~

 

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